Retrospective
- Oliver
- Sep 7
- 6 min read
As we are entering the fall season and the year is coming to an end I am looking back and I see that these last 1 1/2 years have been a time of revelation of truth for me, a time of the heart, the spiritual warrior, surrender, the love of God, resilience, discernment and the reopening of the heart and third eye.
I had to go deep into darkness to finally get to see the reality of the 85 percent (according to consciousness research 85 percent of the worlds population calibrate below the integrity line - see Hawkins and the levels of consciousness) in all its totality.
Its like a small lifetime of studying the non-integrous came to a final conclusion.
Paradigm blindness kept me in a blind spot for quite a few years as I was unwilling to see the darkness in its totality. The heart level feels like a small dose of mdma and I didn't want to see the darkness as the love that I felt for everything felt too good.
I always saw the egos of people, they were obvious to me but in my love high I always saw their egos and their antics as “cute”. I was sufficiently disidentified from my own little trickster because I had done my work for years that I didn't take their identification with their ego seriously. I didn't allow myself to see the totality of the egos darkness and the danger that the ego and its denial, lies and deceptions actually pose in others.
This past 1 1/2 years I broke through and the totality of the 85 percent and what non-integrity actually means on a spiritual level hit me like a ton of bricks as it was subjectively experienced once more. Non-integrity is the definition of hell, it is severe darkness and a lack of love.
The consciousness levels below 200 (shame, guilt, fear, desire, anger, pride etc.) are a painful, dark reality and when you get confronted with these you get burned.
Therefore if you calibrate above consciousness level 200, the integrity line as described by David Hawkins it is VITAL to avoid the non-integrous at all costs, as they are going to pull you down. When the denial is broken and you see it for what it really is it knocks you out. It is very dangerous to choose the wrong company. I got pulled down and burned more than once, apparently I needed that lesson of discernment a few times in my life to finally wake up to the totality of it all which I am very grateful for in retrospect.
With this realization like a light in the darkness came another discovery, the actual application of muscletesting to discern truth from falsehood and to get to the bottom of truth as THE tool to free oneself from deception and illusion.
If you are integrous the tool of muscletesting is THE way to guide you on your journey and keep you safe in a sea of non-integrity and lies. It is a gift. A gift the integrous population has been gifted to stay safe. I cannot put into words how grateful I am that this realization finally was granted to me. It is the gift of truth itself.
After years of driving blind and having to rely on intuition, getting backstabbed left and right, these days have finally come to an end. I pulled a lot of painful energetic arrows out of my back heart chakra this year alone. No more backstabbing possible after this year as this gift has finally been realized as what it is.
You can test ANYTHING with muscletesting and can get to the truth of anything by simply stating a statement and testing the body if it remains strong (truth) or goes weak (false). By making statements and testing their truth you can get to the bottom of anything. Being deceived is no longer possible. Nothing is hidden and everything stands revealed as long as your intention is integrous and your motivation is the truth.
All stands revealed.
My teacher once told me to be aware and cautious as when you reach the level of consciousness of love and open the heart you are going to attract the darkest of the dark. I didn't get what he meant back then but later I realized it myself, it is true. When you open your heart chakra you are going to get targeted by the dark and you are going to get attacked through people in various ways. It happened to me more than once over the years.
You have to be selective and qualify who you allow into your life and inner circle. Use discernment and ask the body via muscletesting.
The thing is if you get deceived and attacked by the non-integrous, being dragged down into their lies and falsehoods, after you have removed yourself and shown them the door you have to feel the pain of it all and keep your heart open no matter what. In the midst of pain keep it open and don't run away from it by closing it and following the ego. Keep it open and burn the pain away because at the other side you will come out stronger and even more loving than before.
Your open heart can take ANY pain and transmute it into love when you allow it to FEEL EVERYTHING as long as it takes to burn it down.
That's our job.
A spiritual warrior feels everything.
In any pain feel all of it and keep the heart open and surrender to the love of God each and every step, which is your open heart.
What other people do or don't do is none of our business. Its their karma. All we can do is give our best and love to the best of our ability and let the chips fall where they may.
The love that you are is always with you.
No one can take away your love or dim your light if you don't allow it. People will try but its on us to realize it is ours.
Its the truth of what you are.
It is your home and your salvation that is always with you, always has been and always will be.
It is home, it is God, and it is subjectively tangible and the essence of what you are when all the clouds and lower level emotions are removed.
All we need to do is keep the heart open at all times especially when you feel pain as the natural tendency is to close it down when you got hurt (the ego trying to pseudo-protect itself).
Don't falter, keep the heart open no matter what.
I feel incredibly grateful to have been shown this within the last two years, its been a time of getting deeper and more real than ever before.
Love is all there is.
All pain, all the lower level consciousness emotions are obstructions that block the awareness of that love, the truth of what you are and have to be surrendered by FEELING IT ALL until they run out to get through to the light.
It is the only process we must make to transcend the bs and reach the light.
As you pull up stacks of lifetimes of lower level emotions all will come up and it is an incredibly painful process but its the devotion to truth that will get you through in the end. Better than choosing illusion and the egos endless distractions, getting fooled by the ego for lifetimes.
The process to get to the truth of what you are is to deeply surrender.
Surrender is sitting and being with any uncomfortable feeling, watching it unswervingly with laser like attention, feeling it in its totality as painful as it might get until it runs out and the light comes through.
It’s painful but it’s all worth it trust me.
You are love.
You are home.
You always have been and always will be.
All else is illusion.
To get to the subjective realization of this truth all you need to do is to do the inner work.
Oliver
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